Gratitude Stories ~ Ready Restoration

Greetings Dear Reader,

The jumping off point for these expressions of gratitude is the idea that every day is a new story in which we get to write the way in which we interact with the universe. I have also tried to be clear that I am on a journey of restoration in addition to other things. This gratitude story is part of that journey.

As long as I can remember I have tried to put on a good face in new situations. I try to be friendly and fearless when in truth I usually feel inferior and unwanted. I want others to feel at ease and reach out to be kind and welcoming. Then there are the situations like the one I am in now.

I am trying to be humble and honest. I am wanting to be genuine and be myself. My brother took me to a Sunday night para-church service the first week I was here. As is common in many small churches they need volunteer help and asked me for it. I felt the deep need to gloss over my history and be kind and charming.

Instead I asked to meet with the leadership of the group before I accepted the offer to help. I told them the story of my failure and sin. I was honest about why I was back in this small town where good and evil seem to be locked in such bloody combat. I recognize that there is no such thing as neutral in this war.

As is the way with these things, the Father had prepared the path for my journey just like he did with the people I was trying to find. Unknown to me, this group of Christ followers had recently chosen that they wanted to be involved in the restoration of those who had failed and wanted to make their way back to faith and following. The leadership’s exact words were, “We came back from our conference wanting to be involved in restoration ministry and here it is in our midst.”

My gratitude is that even though there are those who will not see me, speak to me, and allow us to build the kind of lives Christ wishes us to, there are those ready and willing to allow me to confront my failures and help me find the way that is next. I am sure that the Father is guiding all of this. I am thankful that he has a place where I can be of service and sort out my heart at the same time.

My quest feels as if it is on the edge of the knife. There are precipitating needs that I do not know how to meet. There is fear and pain still to be confronted. There is no certainty in front of me except for the day’s journey. That, however, is supposed to be enough. What I have is great gratitude that everything is working toward all things getting back to GOOD. In our daily stories we either strike a blow for that good or we further the darkness. Today I choose gratitude for those who have the heart to do what it takes to restore in love those who have failed. It gives me the courage to continue to seek redemptive restoration for those who have cast me aside because of my failures. It is things like this that are at the heart of “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.”

No Rusty Swords — Michael Card

Don’t you know the battle’s raging

And you got to join the fight

There’s an army of the darkness

And an army of the Light

There’s a side that fights for Satan

And a side that’s for the Lord

And on this battle field there are no rusty swords

On this battle field there are no rusty swords

Christ has made the final move

So our side is sure to win

He became like us so we would have

A chance to be like Him

It seems strange so many fall back

When the victory has been won

You just need to ask yourself

Which side you’re on

And on this battle field there are no rusty swords

On this battle field there are no rusty swords

There’s a fact you need to understand

Before you join our side

You need to know when Jesus calls

He bids you come and die

He’s invaded Satan’s kingdom

And He’s claiming all His own

When the battle’s over

He will lead us home

Don’t you know the battle’s raging

And you got to join the fight

There’s an army of the darkness

And an army of the Light

There’s a side that fights for Satan

And a side that’s for the Lord

And on this battle field there are no rusty swords

And on this battle field there are no rusty swords

On this battle field there are no rusty swords

Wishing you joy in the journey,

Aramis Thorn

Mat 13:52 So Jesus said to them, “That is why every writer who has become a disciple of Christ’s rule of the universe is like a home owner. He liberally hands out new and old things from his great treasure store.”

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Originally published at aramisthorn.blogspot.com on November 6, 2018.